Much of what you hear associated with any kind of diabetes
diagnosis is the potential for horrific health events. Heart disease, eye problems and of course the
“shooting, burning pins and needles of diabetic nerve pain” that we hear about
in TV commercials every day. What scares
me? Maybe not the things you’d think.
My greatest fear is having a seizure due to low blood
sugar. If you knew me then or have since
heard about my seizures after a head injury in high school you’ll likely understand
why. It hasn’t happened yet and many
people with T1D go through their lifetime without getting hit by a
seizure. It’s my single most active
concern above and beyond any other short term problems. I hate reading stories about people with T1
experiencing low blood sugar seizures and I’m conscious of the risk nearly
every time I go low.
Long term I naturally worry about all of the
possibilities. But the one I mention
most frequently is amputation. As
hilarious as this sounds and as much as it makes me chuckle to talk about, this
is no joke. I have tiny feet. Elf feet, as some friends refer to them. I’ve seen what it looks like when someone
with T1D loses their toes. If I lose my
toes my stumpy little feet will be practically useless. I’m already lucky the little things are just big
enough to operate a gas pedal. If I lose
my toes I’ll be in trouble! J
Am I afraid of dying?
Not death itself, I don’t think.
It’s coming one day whether I like it or not. I’m afraid of dying before I’m done. I’ve got a lot left to do and I’m nowhere
near done yet. So I’m sticking around. What do I need to do to say I’m done? Check with me in 40 years and I’ll let you
know if I’m there yet.
Want to know what really scares me, far beyond anything T1
can throw at me? Spiders. There is no greater comedy than watching me
jump out of my skin when one of those 8 legged monsters appears in my
house. They’re a much more urgent threat
than anything diabetes can throw at me.
I’m independent, I’m strong…and I’m compelled to execute any spider that
dares enter my house. After my heart
rate returns to something close to normal, anyway.
Suddenly I have this urge to order these
fabulous slippers…with bells on!
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